Eagle-eyed regulars around here may have noticed something different about Retromags over the past couple of days. For the first time since February 21, 2016, I haven't uploaded anything to the gallery.
In 524 days, I uploaded exactly 7000 pics - that's an average of 13.25 pics per day. And now I've stopped.
Why? I've already commented about how I have a personal desire/mission to fill all the missing holes in the cover gallery. And I've still got thousands of pics sitting in folders waiting to be uploaded, so it isn't that I've run out of covers to upload. So what changed?
The stupidest of things, really. A little number buried in a faraway section of the site most people never even visit - a number that tracked how many images I've uploaded. It isn't a number anyone else was looking at - I'm positive I was the only person keeping track of it. And yet, as it turns out, that number was the only thing keeping me going. Thanks to a bug introduced in the latest site upgrade, that number no longer works, and no matter how many images one uploads, that number will never increase. And surprisingly, I've found that I no longer have any desire to upload anything, at least not until it gets fixed.
As I said, it's a stupid reason. If I was truly motivated by a desire to fill in all those ugly gray "photo coming soon" boxes in the database, then why quit over such a small thing? That would be stupid.
Except maybe it's stupider than even I realized. Maybe I was fooling myself into thinking I had an active interest in improving the site, and the real reason I was uploading images was just to watch that little number get bigger. Not only would my reason for stopping be stupid, but my reason for contributing to the site in the first place would be indefensibly stupid. Just one big cyclical pattern of stupid. Could it be? Could I be...that stupid?
Hmmm. I hope not. Until the stat tracker gets fixed, I guess I've got some time to think about it.